I have had long hours cast in shadows
Behind blinded windows low lit.
What lay behind them silenced by
The drone of highways, rustling covers
And wood creak floors paced upon.
Brooding as a strong suit, waiting to be
Hidden in the cloak of night's turning,
Where even I can feel some end.
I have counted days of rain and sun,
Seen them all coalesce in fine grace
In their own way, but kept myself hidden,
I do not go out these days.
Though the paycheck serves to cause,
And really I am lucky as such,
The only reward I've gained
Is a bottle for a friend, and long distance
Phone calls to pass some time.
From the moment I've drawn breath
Was given a good life, one that I
Cannot command; there is some
Meaning I've yet to find in this dance,
And every time it rains the walls drip;
The ceiling threatens to cave in.

I've passed miles of empty road,
And the only bliss I see anymore
Are the big fields at sunset, the great
Grazing beasts lazing in the evening hour
As I glide by solemn on a motor bike,
Knowing I must turn around,
But never wanting to.
And where would I go? What to attend?
Spend a long month visiting friends
Scattered about this land like
Monuments? And after, what then?
Board a ship secretly and sail away,
Never to be seen again? What good
Would that cause, for a runaway like me?
I cannot find my way out of this box.
It fractures my structures, it echos
All my sense out of me.
I am locked and I am lost. I do not seek
More advice. I only wish to be at peace,
To be left alone,
Until I am complete.

What is certain in the light?
Hoping that I'll do it well.
Spoken softly in the night;
World has crumbled but oh well.

You use to know you used to know,
Just how to put on a good show.
I might as well move on, ahead,
You're running in my mind too long.

Wishing on this star ain't right.
The past is seen in a new light.
The darkness is alot of miles ahead.
But this candle burns on in the night,
A river shimmers in the faint white light.

So, sun gone for the move back home
Where I'm a stranger and a ghost,
Gonna see just how damn clever I've
Become, gonna see just how much I'm wrong.

Just because the substance doesn't
Arrive the way you thought it'd be,
It doesn't mean it isn't there.
Volume is a manifold perspective.
Stupid hearts try to adhere it,
But they never see it,
Hardly hear it. Pulse, rhythm, beat.
Why don't you go ahead and
Drown those memories for good;
Let them sink deep and heady.
Tie a heavy rock and watch the descend
As the new revelations make haste.
You could grow from that.
We could all grow something,
Some kind of thing from that.
What else is there to do?
We are all lost children.
We didn't get it right, like some do.
We fucked it up a bit,
So we contend with time,
And try to reconcile the difference.
But it may take a long while...
Are we Ok with that?

No armor now. Wide open.
The world comes crashing in.
And the light burns these fresh eyes;
The darkness makes them afraid.
Can I contend with the ghosts of
My past? Can I combat this new image
With nothing of my own to defend?
I'll be alright somewhere, somehow.
I'm capable of being alone.
But to think of all these thoughts,
Feelings, witnessed beauty,
And to share it alone, so sad.
I do not mean that I need some love.
As far as I'm concerned love can
Take a long vacation from me.
But a friend, a close body to confide;
Someone whom I can understand,
Who understands me,
So pleasant, so nice.
We were not made to walk this cosmic
Body alone. We were built to unite.
I am not in unison.

Every single person is a gift.
Beautiful spirits, we float.
We glide this earth strident,
And hope for the right being
To open us up. Some may stray
While waiting. Some find it fast,
And hold on for dear life;
Life becoming dear the moment
Of meeting. Whatever the harbor,
Love abounds. It does not discriminate.
It presents itself to all.
So keep eyes open. Do not hold back.
Instinct is love's implicit act.
Oh, you'll find that sweet ease and release. You were young once. You
Dreamed of all this so. Sometimes it
Takes a while. You can't make that plan,
How are you to know? Just let it glide
On down to you sweet and easy.
That's the way it's going to come.
Trust in this and not much more.
The meaning is less complicated
Than all you've been searching for.