Locally Divided, and Nothing Ever Changes...

Talking with an old friend about the scene here in town and how it used tobe and what it used tomean and why it was great before and how its justshit now and I'm so tired of the word like everyone is tired of the word "scene" like its somekind of curse word and the curse is indifference I think. If there was ever onething that was something to be proud about before it was that we could just sit and make music and people, all people, just people and music would make it a good night to be alive and awake and the night felt better and booze felt better and sex and drama felt better and arguments were worthy but now we all just argue over the fact that we all feel the same and that nobody is better than anybody else just like society full of opinionless people who feel nothing ever and never tell you if they do keeping it bottled up like that is bad for the colon or the soul or probably both if you think about it. I'm fully aware of the lack of punctuation in this and these words I'm regurgitating on this page and I don't care because you are responsible in part for my disruption and you know it and you still don't care and so i think you are an asshole for just that, locally speaking. Why don't you care I wonder? Why don't you go out and buy a new pair of shoes or something and feel better about yourself while the whole thing around you is rotting and you step all over it with your new shoes that shine so bright with that flashy money you make selling yourself and everyone else out like you've been doing for awhile. I tried to escape all this mess and I failed because here I am back in this hell of a place and you say "its good to have you back" because misery loves company and you know that better than anything else these days. I may be an old fucker in this place filled with young, stupid kids who don't participate and only care about getting fucked and having a good time but at least I know why people wanted to get fucked and have a good time and it had nothing to do with just that because it was about something bigger than yourself it was about the whole place and the whole group and the whole i-dea that if we kept it going we could ALL, every last one of us go out and get fucked and have a good time. We all went our separate ways i guess and now that it has been wrecked and kicked and it sits there dead as can be we look at it real hard and some say whats that? and some say what happened? and some say thats the way it is. and really for those of you who still ask why it is because you made it happen. If this pisses you off then thats good because I haven't seen anyone mad for a good reason in a long time and if this makes you not like me than fucking fine because I don't care about people who don't want a say in something more than talking themselves up anymore. Most of you have nothing to do with this and so take no notice of what i say. If you know what I'm talking about than you damn well know how you feel and that is what you should go off of and not the majority because everytime i look around lately it seems the majority doesn't know shit about anything.

Copyright ©2006 Charles Anthony Dominick